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Summary of Question:	Will I Be Punished?
Category:	General Sikhism
Date Posted:	Sunday, 8/13/2000 10:05 AM MDT

Hi, I'm kind-of married. However, i have sinned. Will i be punished. I know that when you die or soul is judged. Sometimes i feel i am already punished because i am Sikh, and because my family is relgious i have so many restrictions. I feel i can not be my one self, because of Sikhism and the Indian culture, my parents care to much about caste, and what others in our community say. Sometimes i feel god is laughing at me. Then i feel just because i cheated on someone, i will not go to hell, because look at people like criminals who murder, is that judged the same when u die. I wish i was white, or sometimes i think i should find a different relgion. I feel there is one god, but what the hell does not cutting hair have to do with anything? I think as long as u are a good person, treat everone equal, you will go to heaven. Isn't my life written by god, so what ever happens god intended it to happen. For example my sister ran a way from home, why did this happen to my parents when they go to guradwa

Ra, my father prays 24 seven, he is a true strict Sikh, however my parent's are hurting because of my sister running away from home. So what to i do, to prove that i am a great daughter i go to India and marry someone i do not know, if i bring him to Canada i will have to change alot. Sometimes i dream of kiilling him, or ways to screw up immigration so we won't come. So at times i feel god is laughing, if he knows that i may not be happy, why did this happen. Before i got engaged, my parents took me to a sant to get sagaan for my engangement. Sometimes i feel so much hatred. I don't think i can love, him but i would do it for my parents, if something happened to him, i don;t think i would care. When people commit suicide is it gods doing? Because isn't everything written for you when u are born so how can we be punished?? What the hell is life about??? I think it is about partying and having a good time. I hate being Indian i wish i was white so i can actually have a damn life. Help I'm so
fustrated

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Greetings and blessings to you dear sweet daughter of God.

You are feeling a lot of pain and confusion in your life. Challenges are there....we all make mistakes in life...everyone does make mistakes...that is how we sometimes have to learn. Guilt is holding on to the pain of the past. You are punishing yourself. Stop it. You can and I will explain a process to clear away the garbage so you can find the lotus inside of you.

You have the challenge of your parents expectations and the challenge of the "white life" around you. The "white life" may look great to you, but it is full of frustrations too.

Here is the process. First of all, remember that you are a creation of the One God and you are loved by God. You are a beautiful being and you are thinking many negative and troubling thoughts.

Sit in some quiet private and pleasant place and take a few deep breaths.Take a note pad and pen too. Hold your breath for one minute until you feel calmer.When you are flooded with emotions you cannot think clearly. When you can clear your mind of the flood of emotions you can stop reacting. When you stop reacting you can look at your life more clearly and make adjustments and changes.

Begin your process of clearing by: sitting comfortably with a straight spine...
close your eyes and go deep inside yourself by concentrating at your brow point-third eye-bindi point- but deep inside your head. Then start watching your breath go in and out through your nose. Relax your stomach so your breath can be deep and full. Let the thoughts come but keep focusing back to the breath.

Now, start inhaling slowly to the count of 10- mentally say: sa-ta-na-ma/sa-ta-na-ma, sa-ta-na-ma(3x).Then, hold your breath in, while you say with your mind:"sa ta na ma 3x again...then exhale slowly through your nose while you mentally say sa-ta-na-ma 3x......keep doing this breath meditation for 11 to 31 minutes. When you have completed this, sit or lie down on your back and say "I am the Grace of God" out loud and silently 10 times each. Then just relax and feel yourself filled with love. Then feel yourself protected by God....feel yourself loved and protected by Mata Sahib Kaur....feel yourself protected by Guru Nanak or any special Guru, Guru Ram Das, Guru Gobind Singh or all of them. Then feel yourself guided by your own internal light.....You have a light of God and consciousness within you. You have all wisdom inside of you....reach to it and find your way....sa means: birth, ta means life, na means death, and ma means rebirth.....put it all together: satnam-truth is my identity.

Do this exercise every day for 31 minutes for the next 40 days and feel the difference in your life. Read the Jap Ji Sahib of Guru Nanak, meditatively..in ENGLISH...so you can learn and understand the truth of this life and this creation to find happiness in yours.

God bless you.

You can run or walk briskly for 30 minutes to an hour and get rid of all those pent up feelings you have. You might do this physical exercise before you do your breathing exercise.